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Name: Aaron
Country: United States
State: Ohio
Metro: Marysville
Birthday: 7/9/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Music, film, show choir, Broadway, Jesus...
Expertise: Music (choral and rock), film, conducting and all things show choir.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Music Education
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Member Since:
6/24/2004
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| does anyone read this any more? i'm not posing that as a question to be answered with comments, rather it should be taken in a more rhetorical sense, as in who pays attention to this ill-maintained whine factory? ok, that's still a perfectly answerable question, but to avoid embarrassment on anyone's part, i still say it's closed to comment.
i suppose while i'm here, i will provide a quick update. xanga, after all, is still a wonderful tool for journaling and venting (not that i'm in the particular mood for either currently). right now it is the first week of spring quarter at Ohio University. i'm excited for this quarter because i feel that for the first time in my college career, i've taken charge of my studies. no more stale music classes and fellow students that like to sequester themselves into steaming hot practice booths for hours at a day to hold me back, i'm on the up and out as a proud undecided major. yes, undecided is moreso the absence of a major, but it's better than spending my days tied down in a building that seemed to drain away my will for life.
outside of academics, life is swell. during winter quarter i was more than a bit of a hermit. i used to laugh at seasonal affective disorder (fittingly abbreviated S.A.D.), but i honestly think a touch of that could be partially to blame for my lack of social interaction and absence of my formerly outgoing nature during the wintry months. however, now that all the snow has melted and temperatures are on the rise, i once again am venturing forth and conversing with my fellow gay man. recently, i've also involved myself with a certain young man. sure, i've dated before this school year, but i've come to enjoy Doug's company in a way unlike any of the other men i've seen. a friendship was built before a relationship, and i'm very glad for that. i respect Doug very much and hope that if and when a time comes for us to seperate romantically, we will still continue as friends.
ok, i could write a truly epic entry given the time since my last posting, but frankly i haven't posted because my interest has wavered. i'm not sure if i'll ever completely give up on xanga - there was a time when it was a dear tool for sharing my best moments and deepest frustrations - but do not look to see me very frequently, loyal (non-existent) reader.
-Aaron Micah Fancey | Currently Watching
Wet Hot American Summer
By Elizabeth Banks (II), Michael Ian Black, Bradley Cooper, Janeane Garofalo, David Hyde Pierce, Gideon Jacobs, Joe Lo Truglio, Ken Marino, Christopher Meloni, A.D. Miles, Gabriel Millman, Marguerite Moreau, Liam Norton, Zak Orth, Amy Poehler, Paul Rudd, Marisa Ryan, Molly Shannon, Michael Showalter
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| it's 3am. i'm sitting in an empty Perkins Hall lounge, aimlessly facebooking and listening to the same song over and over on my iPod - "The Journey Home" from the Bollywood musical Bombay Dreams. this song has never held much special meaning to me. i was actually completely unaware of it before this summer, when my high school choral directors picked it as the show choir's opener for this year's competition season. but fast forward five months, from late August 2006 to late January 2007, and i have now completed one quarter of college, i have come out to everyone except my family, i have submerged myself in the realms of dating and gay community, i have felt the sting from both, made others to feel that same sting from my own actions, i have disappointed, i have built friendships, i have appreciated, observed, i have sought guidance, i have made mistakes, i have ignored responsibility, i have gone the extra mile, i have attempted to love, i have torn asunder people, moments in time, and i have been forgiven.
i don't buy into feeling sorry for yourself, perhaps at one point i did, unconsciously, but now, now i can affirm that i know it to be pointless. assess, always assess and learn. learn as much as you can, reflect on your decisions and their outcomes, empathize with people, people affected or unaffected by you, and do whatever is best. that is my advice to no one but myself. i dare not be so forward as to tell others what to do. i'm only beginning to know what to do with myself. i am happy with myself, with what i've gained from my choices so far, but i am also unsatisfied. i want more. i want to bring happiness to others, i want to make something, something all my own and something i share, i want to share myself with someone and have him give himself back, i want to leave behind all feelings of restraint, i want total sense of ease, and i don't want to feel the passage of time.
i want much and i feel as if i've experienced much, though i know i only just started not long ago. i think that is where the song, "The Journey Home," comes in. there is a lyric at the song's climax, "No, sometimes standing still can be the best move you ever made." i find this lyric very insightful. i hardly wish to advocate inaction to myself, if anything i learned much about the importance of honesty and remaining open this evening, but i also need to allow myself time. too often i find that nervousness, thought of expectation and self-restraint dictate what it is i do, or how it is i behave. well no longer, i hope. now is the time when i must learn to enjoy - those around me, my surroundings, good conversation - much is offered to me daily, and it is my hope that it does not go unappreciated any longer.
-Aaron Micah Fancey | | |
| i apologize for the near-complete lack of updates during my holiday break, but i'm glad to report that it wasn't my fault alone. the Fancey family computer apparently has a vendetta against Xanga, so that whenever i'd try to write a new update, an error message would appear in place of my new posting. very frustrating, i assure you - enough so that i eventually gave up on keeping all you wonderful people informed.
but now i am back at school (and reunited with wondrous high-speed internet) and ready to update semi-regularly once more. i look forward to the coming quarter and hope that i find much to share that will be of some interest.
-Aaron Micah Fancey | Currently Watching
Vera Drake
By Imelda Staunton, Richard Graham, Eddie Marsan, Anna Keaveney, Alex Kelly (II), Daniel Mays, Philip Davis, Lesley Manville, Sally Hawkins, Simon Chandler, Sam Troughton, Marion Bailey, Sandra Voe, Chris O'Dowd, Adrian Scarborough, Heather Craney, Sinead Matthews, Sid Mitchell, Leo Bill, Gerard Monaco
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| i should update, which makes it all the more disappointing that i am boring. -Aaron Micah Fancey | | |
| Marysville is boring. if anyone wants to do something, or has suggestions as to something i can occupy my time with, please give me a comment/call. i'd love to reconnect with all my favorite highschool kiddies (a trip into school or to a show choir practice is in order), or if any college friends find time to be available, then with whomever/wherever i'd love to not be doing nothing. -Aaron Micah Fancey  | Currently Watching
Thank You for Smoking (Widescreen Edition)
By Aaron Eckhart, Maria Bello, Cameron Bright, Adam Brody, Sam Elliott, Katie Holmes, David Koechner, Rob Lowe, William H. Macy, J.K. Simmons, Robert Duvall, Kim Dickens, Connie Ray, Todd Louiso, Marianne Muellerleile, Joan Lunden, Eric Haberman, Mary Jo Smith, Jeff Witzke, Alex Diaz (IV)
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